The Hummingbird's Heart

Greg and I had just finished watching the last available season of The chosen. It was a turning point in our relationship. We had agreed as the chosen episodes were running out, to continue our enjoyment and connection with Jesus by exploring the Bible together. Together. Greg hates the Bible. I love the Bible. We had a hard time figuring out how we could continue this exploration with that conflict. It had been a great evening. Greg cooked smashburger tacos as he has been doing every Saturday night for 6 weeks. I get off work at The Reserve and come straight to his house. At the doorstep. I can smell the Arnold onions. Caramelizing he asked me to just come right in from now on and so I did. This time. I knock and open the door and came right in and he greeted me with his onion spatula and a big smile. We chatted while he cooked the burgers. We sat on the porch devouring them in ecstasy. We cleaned up and sat down and watched the last episode of the chose. We marinated in the impact of it while the credits rolled. And that was the moment we needed to find some common ground to continue this three-way relationship between the two of us and God. Sometime in that conversation glanced out the window and said, did you see that he said a giant brown hawk just flew past the window. He said it's in that tree right there. Can you see it. We went over to the window and stood at the window with our hands on the window frame. Like two little kids looking out at the rain. We were looking for the hawk and couldn't find it. I said, I told you there was a giant brown bird out here somewhere. We both agreed it could be an osprey. I thought it was an owl. He thought it was a hawk. And then a tiny dark bullet shot past our eyes. A hummingbird! Greg exclaimed. Was it I asked? I thought it was a super fast bug. But maybe a baby hummingbird I questioned. Then Greg started. His fingers his thumb and forefinger started tapping together. He held up his hand and tapped his thumb and forefinger together faster and faster and faster. See that he asked. That's the hummingbird's heart. That heartbeat is so fast. WHAT THE F***? He turned and stared at me and kept beating the heartbeat with his thumb and forefinger. He said, what makes that happen? And then he slowed it down. He said, the human heart does this. He slowed it way down. Bu bump. Bu bump. Bu bump. What makes that happen? He asked what the f*** makes that continue to happen? Ask any medical professional and they can't answer that one question. Sure, they'll give you some long drawn out explanation but when you say, but what is it? What makes it happen. They can't answer it. We continued this conversation. I surmised it was the breath of God. I told him how celebration Church went kind of Jewish with stovall toward the end and he used the word ruach a lot which means breath of God. Adam received the breath of God and received life. Adam was dust and then God gave him a shape and breathed his breath into him. I said we are breathing God's breath now. And Greg completely agreed. But then Greg went on to talk about quantum physics. We had enjoyed much discussion while the credits were rolling on The chosen about quantum physics and how we are almost exclusively made of energy. And that energy is eternal. And our bodies are temporary. A temporary arrangement of energy forces. Greg suspected that AI was going to answer that question for us. He said it took 1,500 years after Christ to discover the Adam. So in Christ's day, Jesus was not able to explain that to the people around him. They could not comprehend quantum physics. But now we can. And with AI, we might get the answer after all. He said things are moving so much faster now. Greg contemplated reincarnation. He said he didn't rule that out. He says he feels like while he was in spirit form, eternal Spirit form, he had a conversation with God and said he would like to experience skydiving and sailing and architecture. And God said okay but it's going to come with some bad stuff and you have to stick it out. And he agreed. My takeaway was this is another one of those existential questions that unbelievers avoid. And when I say unbelievers I include myself prior to 2019. Or maybe prior to 1995. My list of existential questions was brought up with this conversation during the credits of the chosen. I said I was really uncomfortable in conversations about time and space because time and space cannot have limits. They cannot have boundaries. They cannot have endpoints. It just does not add up. Logically. Therefore, time and space must be eternal. That's the only logical explanation. And for that, there must be a supernatural world. And then there's The Big bang theory. So the universe started from an explosion of a single particle. What exploded? And then there's the cell specialization. How does a sell duplicate itself and yet still end up with variance in the DNA? That's my 10th grade getting in trouble moment. But the hummingbirds heart tops them all. We know what makes a heart stop. But what makes it start?

There is a branch of science that science likes to deny. Academics call it pseudoscience. Inquisitive minds might call it the unknown pursuit of the unknown. Pursuit of origins. Pursuit of destination. Pursuit of cause. Study of the force that creates the natural. Early scientists pursued God through science. Bacon, Boyle, held science salons like church. They were so successful in their quests that the entire scientific canon is built on their discoveries, dismissing the gaping hole those principles rely on. This book well outline the major mysteries that science brazenly denies. Each chapter is a scene where the question is posed in a so-called scientist denies it. It's chapter shows the predicament of the inquisitive mind having to choose between faith and the world and faith in God. 1. The Hummingbird's Heart 2. Big Bang of Nothing 3. Cell Specialization 4. Love 5. Creativity 5. Worship 6. Celebration/Joy 7. Heartbreak 8. Sacrifice 9. Gratitude 10. Scientific Method 11. Intelligent Design 12. Infinite Time 13. Infinite Space

He sat on the couch and watched me do my best Canon in D on the piano mat. When I finished, he said he saw Lucky watching with him during that. Fire in his eyes. GTM. SPVCA publishing conversation. Feet dancing during The Chosen intro. His hoodie matched. Permission to call? He made me risotto with four kinds of mushrooms. Coming home to amazing new sketches. Seeing the Reserve birds' personalities in his photographs. His weight chart taped to the bathroom door. The speed he produced and published pictures. His music playlist. His speed with technology. Ex. Bible app, Windy, CAD. His architecture handwriting. I was bothered that the "cup of peace" in his book still held a hallowed place in his life. He said it was a "sailor thing." The elegant way he ate, especially smash burger tacos. He made sure the ground beef was smashed to the very edge of the tortilla. Fried the meat side. Buttered the tortilla, then flipped it over into and friend the buttered tortilla on the burger grease.