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Step by step. How I gained the world and lost it one piece at a time. One chunk out of my heart at a time. Until there was nothing left. Nothing left to live for. And then I was given a new heart and a new life and a new world.

When I got dumped for the second time in marriage, I crumbled mentally, emotionally, socially. I lost a lot of friends. Being needy is not best way to keep a friend. 

What's with all those songs about lean on me and I'll be your friend? God forbid a person should need help.

But that very destitution drove me to the arms of God. I now live with God. It is infinitely better than any social life I could ever achieve on this planet.

I do still have somewhat of my social life. I've learned that humans can't be my strength. They can't be counted on for that matter. I can't be counted on by anyone else. 

Only the father can be counted on.

II Corinthians 7:10 NKJV [10] For godly sorrow produces repentance leading to salvation, not to be regretted; but the sorrow of the world produces death. https://bible.com/bible/114/2co.7.10.NKJV