This is good tavern legendry. Have a batch of pubsters who love to hear and believe these tales, like modern people who believe outlandish things. Also, have Juan Ignacio and Menendez believe them when they are young.
Have ALL characters encounter moments when they don?t know that to do, so that they all feel relatable to the reader, and so young people will be inspired to take chances on things they don?t know how to do and hope it works out.
maybe Mont can read the SCG for mentions of SA, and Mend can ask for the runaway slave section, like a kid asking for the comics. He can read it to the Mose people like movie night. But when he has to leave on missions, he must find someone else who is willing to learn to read, and is faced with many people who beg him to read for them, but won't learn themselves.
Have Mont or someone read the titles of documents that come in the mail in Spanish so readers get a feel for the tangibility of historical documents, as well as the dates so readers see how long it took for mail to travel.
this was why (non SA) governors had to pay the media anata. Also, have Menendez Marques delight in townspeople getting in trouble because their fines make a significant source of income for the treasury and offsets the missing situados.
Mont and Castilla would find a treasure trove of exciting and juicy details while sifting through the old SA files. Maybe one of them should get addicted to it, so teens can respect the love of reading and digging through historical documents.
all these ?crown? revenues must have been a huge focus for Menendez-Marquez, and Mont and Mend would hear him constantly spouting off such financial issues, perhaps because he earned commission on them.
maybe the Indian allowance was just meant as a padding to cover the degree to which the colonists and friars were not able to win the loyalty of the Indians; perhaps the crown expected the Spaniards to do a better job of incorporating the natives without having to pay them.
have Mont get whopped with another ?not in St. Augustine? every time he turns around. He assumes things are as they are in the rest of the empire, and gets corrected by a local.
this is mentioned in (Swanton) near the expeditions of Pedro Menendez, but the source is a span of 1512-1722:
Barcia Carballido y Zunioa, Andres G. Ensayo cronologico para la historia general de la Florida, 1512-1722, por Gabriel de Cardenas Z. Cano [pseud.. Madrid, 1723.
Maybe Poppy has spending money because he doesn?t blow it on rum and restaurant food, like most of the soldiers. Maybe he sits at the tavern but brings his own (qualified) mug of water, which the tavern owner feels conflicted about because Poppy attracts a crowd, but also inspires others to consider not drinking (unsuccessfully).
out of context? have a spy in SA on Moral?s watch be the way the English find out when the situado is coming and maybe that?s when a situado ship was lost to corsairs.
show this happen at a laymen?s level. Tomas orders something from Havana, earns the money for it, and goes to pay for it when it arrives. But then the customs official demands the additional tax(es), and Tomas has to give up the purchase because he doesn?t have the extra money. At some point, someone finds this cedula and flaunts it, even if it might not have been valid anymore. Maybe he tries to circumvent it by recruiting Mend or Ignacio to make the purchase with their tax exemption, like minors getting people to buy alcohol for them today.
this could be what puts Montiano in conflict with his townspeople. He feels obligated to protect and provide for the Indians to make up for the loss of life and land they suffered by Europeans, perhaps learned by readings Las Casas. Meanwhile, his townspeople do not read such rhetoric and only see the immediate situation and resent the Indians.
? this is a public rebuttal to someone who was criticizing Virginia as a failure. It was delivered in the form of a public apology to one of the investors.
Mend must have seen how assertive and diverse Marquez and Castillo had to be to earn their money, as opposed to the governor and soldiers who just waited for their paycheck.
have Mont be given this book as his instruction manual, and not have time to read it, like teachers thrown to the wolves in other subject areas. Every time he screws up, he finds the solution too late in the Recopilacion. This will inspire readers to MAKE time to read first before guessing.
Maybe Castillo gets thoroughly confused and starts making mistakes in his normal notary duties; Maybe Montiano also gets overwhelmed and tries to give up on understanding his mission or saving St. Augustine, but the note about the Indians threatening mass suicide before going back toward the English revives his determination.
Have Mont run across this in the paperwork. Maybe Castilla is a nosy bookworm who keeps uncovering outlandish things in the files and telling Mont about it, who gets tired of hearing the gossip and starts avoiding Castilla, then Castilla has a whopper that Mont needs to know and he can?t get an audience with him.
out of context? It is a major coincidence that the first governor of the first sanctioned free black settlement is (re)named after the founder of the settlement by way of the family tree.
out of context? As part of highlighting the language barrier, show the maddening habit of people saying ?Como esta? and not waiting for an answer. But every once in a while, someone means it, and you have to be savvy enough to notice when to actually answer the greeting. It takes Mend the entire story to comprehend this.
use the slaves' Muslim background as an opportunity to show the good side of Islam, and let them sort out the contrast with Christianity and their decision to convert, perhaps through Jesus' invitation to all people to be children of God, including the rejected descendents of Ishmael.
Maybe Montiano asks Castillo if any of those six veterans are still alive, or anyone else who was; Maybe he goes and visits all the old people, and maybe he finds some at the tavern.
this might be the priest who married the Gonzalezes. Maybe they had to see their priest get arrested for adultery, or maybe they had to ask a possible adulterous priest to marry them.
Maybe Mont comes up with all kinds of ideas to improve the situation and proposes them to his advisors, and every time, someone recalls a past story of where that idea already flopped. He finally gets a winner with the minted coins idea.
This is how Montiano differed from his townspeople. He couldn't understand why they didn't think like that, and they couldn't understand why he didn't think like them.
this sounds like the Hastings farm ?slavery? system where workers are fed by charging to their future paycheck, which they never see because they are always in arears.
Let a disgruntled SA higher-up say this about Montiano's actions. See the Francsican threat of walkout (1682) that resulted in attempts at radical change.
this is what happens with any radical change, no matter how good the change would be. If radical is necessary, that means there are too many people who will rise up and oppose, and they will have valid reasons.
have a friar in SA storm around on feast days looking for people who skipped mass Inspiration music: Taylor Swift: Haters gonna hate hate hate? shake it off
Is this a French pirate? Https://books.google.com/books?id=YRM-RpBiyTEC&lpg=PA331&ots=Mjg_Gnzv5u&dq=fuentes%20st%20augustine%20gascon&pg=PA56#v=onepage&q=fuentes%20st%20augustine%20gascon&f=false
have Mont lay down the law about foreign trade, and then ever so gradually start blurring the lines, to show that nothing works 100% black and white. Compromise is better.
his duties may have begun as peace cow-boy, then got ugly with failed and then heavy rice cultivation. Ex. New Barbadian master gets rich from cows but dies of malaria, then new owner goes into debt for negroes and fails at rice cultivation and sells Mend, then new owner goes into debt for negroes and gets rich, then leaves abusive overseer in charge.
this means Mend made the same amount of money as the priest; he would feel economically on par in his housing budget and probably wanted to be treated as such
Mend needs to be pass African rice fields and be taken to a slave ship that is also buying rice to show the reader that Africans already knew how to grow rice.
Make sure this fear and awe shows up when Montiano questions the veterans of this war, so it shows a long-forgotten reason the town has succumbed to appeasing the English.
This is the point where the 1740 siege differs! The land party didn?t make it past Fort Mose, thanks to the Africans fighting back. Otherwise, the story would have repeated history.
make this attack the introduction to Juan Ignacio. He is orphaned in the attack, and the tribe moves to Saint Augustine, where he is cared for by the friar.
Juan Ignacio must have no idea who he is. Both the Uchizes and the Yamasee were brutal and disloyal. Make him ashamed of his heritage and shy and lonely because of it. Let the Spanish authorities love him, and let the reader love him through them, but he can?t appreciate that love because it makes him a sellout to his race.
Mend definitely needs to know and love this guy because he later gets to adopt a similar name. Also, readers need good reminders of the good that servants of God are doing.
Have someone tell Mont this as he takes the job so he becomes dedicated to the cause, and then continue to be frustrated like his predecessors by New Spain taking Florida for granted.
Juan Ignacio must have answered this question a thousand times. Maybe he changed his answer for security reasons so much that he lost his sense of heritage.
Maybe Mend never quite let go of SC until Le Jau died. Maybe he thought Le Jau could/would help him get more runaways out, or maybe give Mend another chance at a good life in SC or elsewhere.
out of context? The Christian Indians didn?t seem to have Christian last names. However, Juan Ignacio was ?de los reyes,? of the king?s. Maybe this meant he was a slave. Maybe he was captured, with or without his parent(s), in battle with the Uchises. This would be yet another example of Shades of Free
maybe Juan Ignacio is with one of these tribes and sees the disappointment of Spain not being able to follow through, and sees many Indians give up and go look for a safer territory.
this might be how Tomas met Poppy; Poppy might have commissioned shipping on Tomas? ship, and Tomas was the caretaker of the first order; after that, Poppy placed personal orders from Havana directly through Tomas.
out of context? Maybe Tomas was the only willing person to answer the call for Canary Islanders to settle Apalache, and since a group never formed, he made his way over on his own as a seaman. Maybe he was on the ships between Havana and Apalache, and was always interested in following through on the settlement, but was waiting till it was safer. Then he ended up in SA with Francesca?s family and could not get them to go over there.
Have people misjudge the officials as greedy recipients of an unfair system, and then get slapped with the realities that it's expensive to be an official, and it also requires EDUCATION that others dismiss.
this personal choice can be part of Benavides' decision and announcement to auction the runaways back into slavery. Maybe he offered them the choice to return to their English owners or be auctioned back into slavery in St. Augustine, and they all chose St. Augustine. Maybe Mend also bumped into this when he tried to recruit runaways from the wilderness; some chose to take a chance with the Spanish and some thought all whites are alike.
maybe this is why SA was always broke! Maybe Marquez should say that, or maybe it should wait until the reader is thoroughly sympathetic with the poor Floridians, only to find out that there was a reason for it right in the lap of the whiners, as usual today.
Was Tomochichi Uchize? Maybe he knew Juan Iganacio's origins and told him. Maybe he was the escort to get Juan Ignacio into the Federica camp on friendly terms.
Have Mend know Quash from youth and see this story while reading the Gazette to Mose residents. Others remember him, too. Maybe Mend even tried to recruit Quash in the seven years he was free, but Quash saw that SA lied about freeing slaves and wouldn't come.
Have Poppy act like these are the good days, and tell outlandish (but true) stories of how bad they had it when he was a kid. For example, he can talk about his pet dog or cat, then admit the family had to eat it; like Yvette Coons having to eat her pet rooster. Poppy tells the Gonzales children, "You don't know how good you have it."
have Mend have a young girlfriend named Filledy before he ran away, then he sees her name associated with the meanest slaveowner in Carolina, which fuels his fury at Bloody Mose
let this be a surprise that Montiano finds out. He thinks he is revealing new news about SA's incompetence, only to find out that the same reports had been filed by Moral and Arredondo.
Maybe Montiano asks Ortego where he got this information to determine its accuracy, but Ortega just grins and says it is accurate because he is a historian. This is an opportunity to teach students (and gullible political types) to "consider the source."
Maybe Montiano realizes this after reading this document, that he cannot fight for a written latitude but rather a relationship with natives. Maybe he asks Juan Ignacio for his perception of why the other tribes won't come into the Spanish fold.
I am typing this on March 11, 2017, 280 years later. It is a sunny, chilly (68deg), blustery day here. Maybe Tomas was assigned to accompany Justis on this errand.
Maybe Moral can illustrate how power can corrupt good people. Have someone, the Indians, or people in general, marvel that Moral used to be such a great guy.
I feel Moral?s frustration. Maybe he is utterly convinced and convincing to the reader that it is impossible to obey all the Spanish requirements in faraway, neglected SA, and it begins to look like that as Montiano?s situation gets more bleak. But Montiano does not give up on the process, and at the last moment, his faith in his country comes through for him.
Have Mont continue assuming these people exist in SA and continue getting informed they do not. Then, just when he finally assumes no such person exists and moves forward without even asking, he is chastised to find out that oddball position did exist and he bypassed the person.
This is in stark contrast to the Africans, who HAD to be enterprising in order to survive, since they were not receiving government paychecks or subsidy. Maybe Mend craved moving to Cuba when he found out they had enterprise there.
Make it a lesson that full civil incorporation is the only thing that would have kept the Indians on the Spaniards? side. The friars paved the way into the Indians? lives with gifts per the Christian mode of ?feed my people,? but then made disciples of them by living and working side by side with them. The government stopped at the gifts and alliances part, excluding other races from full Spanish citizenship. That?s why the Indians never became loyal.
point this out loudly so every financially dependent person?especially welfare recipients?feels like a mooch when they read this. Also, make it loud and clear that Florida could have flourished if the Africans and Indians were given full citizenship such that enemy Indians did not accept bribes to wipe out Florida?s attempts at industry ? rather, they would have taken part in the economic opportunities. Maybe a friar or Juan Ignacio can voice this insight after seeing it in action. Juan Ignacio can witness an argument between Old Brims and his nephew, where the nephew just wants to chase European handouts, and Brims knows it?s a losing mentality of dependence.
maybe this was because it wasn?t doing its job. The water route along the Florida coast was still so dangerous that the situado got stolen and some officials from Cuba wouldn?t even chance making the trip.
Have Poppy tell a tall tale of when the treasure fleet stopped at St. Augustine. Have Jesse and Hypolito try to camp out on Anastasia Island to see the fleet go by.
make sure to show Marquez forking out money on behalf of Mend so much that readers feel the expense and value of a slave. He actually does die destitute. He can be an example of the pressures of American men to keep up with status expenses in order to be a man.
Show the extra income potentials and have Mend pursue this avidly throughout the book, showing modern readers the hidden benefits of pursuing higher positions.
have an all-out civil war inside the Castillo just before the sally to Mose, each faction screaming the worthlessness of the others. That?s when Mont has a few start singing the hymn with him.
out of context? Have Mont learn of the normal position of steward ? maybe Guemes advises him so, or maybe he finds it in the Recopilacion - and need and send for that person, only to be told that SA does not have one.
this is out of context? When Mend gained his freedom, he went from being supported to supporting himself. Marquez probably gave him some paid work, but Mend would have to hustle to be self-sufficient enough to build a house, run the militia, and have a family. This is the hustle that welfare recipients like George have to muster up to. Play it up so readers like him are inspired to make a go of it.
out of context? Have Mont be shocked and appalled that there are Creoles on the soldier payroll. Have him try to enforce the law by refusing the position to Creole applicants (like Hypolito?), but then when he needs more men, the ones they round up in Cuba have to be kept in jail so they don?t dodge the draft to Florida. Then Mont appreciates the Creole soldiers.
this surely refers to TePaske saying so. Take a lesson from this ? no matter how true I think something is, I have no idea what?s buried in the AGI that refutes it. Approach everything as a story compiled from others? claims.
have Mont get introduced to the wall set (9 volumes) of Recopilacion volumes as his instruction manual that he must read in order to do his job right. It looms over him like an angry god every time he doesn't know how to handle something, until he finally starts looking into it. Then, he has to read passages several times and cross-reference, just like a good reader must. Just READ, PEOPLE!
Floridanos certainly had to feel constrained by place, due to the expense they had in their strong homes as well as the job security and protection they had from the Spanish government; by contrast, the Indians and Africans would not feel comfortable investing much in a permanent structure home because they were always aware of the possibility of having to run to a safer place when the European power shifted.
these are the positions taken by maroons that Menenedez was sent to recruit from. He would have to pitch the pros and cons of their option to join the Spanish.
Maybe Tomas has a discussion with someone about slave vs. paid labor. One or the other says, "I'm glad they got freed. That's cheap labor, there. I can't afford to buy a whole slave. I could buy me (___) for that."
align this with immigrants to America getting legal rights as soon as they get citizenship, while existing Americans don't think it's fair. It's just a national policy of freedom, just like Spain had with the decree. Also, maybe a slave in St. Augustine repeatedly runs away hoping to get sanctuary, but it only applies to runaways from English colonies. Maybe he even asks how long he'd have to be an English slave to qualify for the sanctuary. But Mend and the other slaves warn him it's not worth it because he'd likely die at the hands of the English.
While Juan Ignacio and Mend are out recruiting from Indian villages, they can encounter a much-wanted runaway who chooses to stay with the Indians because he wants to marry the chief's widow, or someone else.
have Mend hesitate in running away because he was trusted with great responsibility and he wants to be trustworthy. He then spends the rest of his life trying to prove he is trustworthy.
assumes one of these dates because the first is the date on the following ?LIST OF NAVAL SIGNALS, AND VARIOUS DIRECTIONS, FOR THE EXPEDITION AGAINST GEORGIA? written by Guemes and dated March 1738. The second is the date Guemes wrote the appointment of general command to Montiano.
assumed this date because it is the date on the following ?LIST OF NAVAL SIGNALS, AND VARIOUS DIRECTIONS, FOR THE EXPEDITION AGAINST GEORGIA,? and because it explains why Echevarria is named as commander rather than Montiano.
maybe have Mont sees this guy head out to trade illegally with the English and he just disappears. Maybe Mont. considers him a defector. Then he shows up in Cuba 2 years later
Maybe Montiano is disgusted with the Indians' reluctance to fight, then he realizes that he took the job of governor partially because he was tired of fighting, just like the Indians
Maybe Montiano asks Castillo if any of those six veterans are still alive, or anyone else who was; Maybe he goes and visits all the old people, and maybe he finds some at the tavern.
Maybe Montiano learns that the original Yamassee were taken in by the Spanish as refugees but then turned on the Spanish, so he wonders bitterly why they are now being protected in St. Augustine (where Juan Ignacio is staying with them)
Maybe Montiano asks Ortego where he got this information to determine its accuracy, but Ortega just grins and says it is accurate because he is a historian. This is an opportunity to teach students (and gullible political types) to "consider the source."
Maybe Montiano realizes this after reading this document, that he cannot fight for a written latitude but rather a relationship with natives. Maybe he asks Juan Ignacio for his perception of why the other tribes won't come into the Spanish fold.
Mend can be forced to do this as a teenager on someone who protected him and be traumatized by it, but keep it a secret till the climax; until then, it looks like he was a killer for no reason
Have Mend read these accounts to the Mose residents during meetings, till they start to recognize some names, and one of them becomes an ongoing comical saga of a character who keeps showing up in the Gazette for running away and black marketing, then finally shows up in SA, only to defect back to the English after the battle at Mose because he got away with a lot more there.
Marquez could be mocked for his attempt to claim his ancestors' riches and ownership of all the wild cattle. He could be a character of lofty claims and dementia.
Maybe Montiano learns that the original Yamassee were taken in by the Spanish as refugees but then turned on the Spanish, so he wonders bitterly why they are now being protected in St. Augustine (where Juan Ignacio is staying with them)
Have Mend read the SCG to get the back-story on newly arrived runaways. In this case, he would suspect Lancaster of being a nare-do-well. Lancaster can deny it, then get caught in the tavern anyway. Then he can argue that the Smiths confiscated everything he earned, saved, or bought, so he resorted to only spending his money on pleasure.
Mend can struggle with his identity based on the English forcing one name on him, the Indians not knowing what to call him, and the Spanish forcing another name on him. He can show his choice of being a Spanish subject by embracing the Spanish name.
maybe have Mont sees this guy head out to trade illegally with the English and he just disappears. Maybe Mont. considers him a defector. Then he shows up in Cuba 2 years later
? this is a pitch for people to settle and/or invest in the startup of Virginia. It relates to Mose because it?s before the English had ruined their reputation with the Indians. It shows the English justifying their land
Have Mont think poorly of Juan Ignacio and then get surprised by Guemes' instructions to use him. Maybe Juan appears to be a shady sloth, like a pothead.
I typed this from the card is in SAHS's copy of the Stetson calendar. However, the card is not in the copy at UF, and the letter is not on either microfilm roll within two weeks of the date. See email from Charles Tingley 9/22/17.
Juan is constantly invited to live like an Indian. Many people crave the simple life, such as the surfers who move to villages in the Caribbean and open yogo studios in the dirt. Why doesn't everybody do that? If they are willing to live without creature comforts, they might. However, Juan gradually discovers the reality that those people are at the mercy of the more powerful societies. The Indians lost their independence, and so will anyone who tries to live like them.
Have the Spaniards be lulled into thinking the English must have some legitimate claim to Georgia because they act so confident about their encroachment. Nobody reads the history to know the truth except Arredondo, who goes crazy trying to get people to believe that Spain really did have legitimate occupation of Georgia until English encroachment. Make it a lesson about the value of learning history, and also about how capitalist greed can overpower passive pawns.
Have Montiano HATE reading, like many modern students and people. He is given Barcia's book as orientation, but procrastinates on reading it. This comes back to bite him when he starts believing the English have rights to GA just because of their confidence in it. When Arredondo finally calls him out on not reading the Barcia book, and he is ordered to compile his own report, Montiano finds out he was wrong about many things, and made many bad decisions, for lack of doing his homework.
Make sure to emphasize the ratio of death to captive in slave raids. Maybe Pujoy is less aggressive about finding his family because he's so thankful they were not killed.
Josh told me Kayla considered hiring his financial management services, then shrugged it off saying, "We'll always be hood-rich." I guess that means they stay broke and in debt because they spend all their money on luxuries. Have some Indians live in squalor but strut around town in fancy clothes.
The Indian slavery side of this book is a replica of African slavery. It's an opportunity to re-tell the war-captive version of slavery in a new light. Most people don't think about the war-captive part of African slavery, let alone the Wag The Dog part that Europeans played.
Show this stuff! This might be how Juan Ignacio is Uchise by birth: his mother was captured in a slave raid, ravished by a Uchise, and escaped to a Guale village. Maybe she died during childbirth, being too young.
Have Le Jau express his description of the barbaric Carolinians, then have the Yamasee tell Nairne that Charles Town harbors a species of pirates/wild animals called traders.
This can be laughable to us nowadays, as the American Revolution was to throw off royal government. Let Mend hear this debate going on, such that he develops a sense of security in the idea of a king being in charge.
Let this be Juan Ignacio's introduction to the world of Indian messenger. He can be enchanted with Brims as a veritable Lord, with no possessions, like Jesus.
Out of context: Juan Ignacio can adopt a childlike version of Brims' philosophy: Can't we all be friends? That's how he gets accepted into the conversation with soldiers at Frederica. They are suspicious of him at first, but the conversation becomes a forum for Juan to sort through his feelings, and end up at that question. The soliders burst out laughing and hug him, like a na?ve child they are entertained by. Maybe Brims or Tomochichi tells Juan that one can only achieve that kind of wisdom with age. Juan develops a personal goal of enlightenment simply through old-age. When he dies, he is sad that he missed out on it.
This is the GOOD side of capitalism. Free trade for all. In business, let the best products at the best prices win. It's why FL couldn't keep Indian alliances either. However, SC's version failed because it wasn't regulated enough to prevent corruption and violence. Is regulation necessary to prevent tyrants and dictators and puppet populations, or should we wait for the long process of self-correction?
Juan Ignacio starts out as a young Guale who thinks he is supposed to act like the Yamasee hotheads and be eager for border forays. But he doesn't really have the drive, and feels defective and wimpy. Nevertheless, he tries to play the part, and says weird and stupid things simply because he's not clear on it. Then he gets to sit in Indian councils, which always begin with elaborate commitments of peace for the sake of communication, regardless of how hostile the message may be. Then he gets to be in a formal council with Brims, and he is forever changed by Brims' statement of wanting to maintain peace with all Europeans, though not among Indians. Brims maintains his hostility against Cherokee, etc. Juan Ignacio, knowing he is blood related to enemy Yuchi, wishes the Indians would establish peace as well. He spends the rest of his life seeking peace among all nations, which becomes a secret that he has to hide from Montiano. The more he approaches enemies with a desire for peace, the safer he feels, and the more hospitality he receives. He hopes to get the nerve to approach the Yuchi and ask about his relatives and heritage, but then he keeps hearing of another disturbing example of their meanness.
"Even though substantial discount be made for Cuming's exuberance, the eccentric Scot had evidently appealed to the dramatic instincts of the Indians, and had made a notable impression at a crucial moment in their relations with the English. "
Try to get someone to say his proposal of massive Jewish exportation and British national debt! "A chronic projector, his schemes ranged from a plan for banks to support the colonial currencies to an absurd proposal to payoff the British national debt by settling three hundred thousand Jewish families in the Cherokee mountains."
"A member of the S.P.G., and later deputy-governor of the Royal African Company, his interests ran as strongly towards the development of the colonies as towards social reform in England."
Have Nairn bring a price list to Pocotaligo, but illustrate it with one set of each item, with small strips of deerskin to represent full buck skin counts. Have Sue get the task of cutting up the deerskin patches and laying out the items for display.
Have Mend and/or Juan Ignacio get attracted to a widow, then get denied because of the mourning law. Maybe Mend swears he will wait the prescribed time, then ends up going to SA before it comes.
Adair says Spaniards invented Indian empires; Indians say "every one is promoted only by public virtue, and has his equals in civil and marital affairs"
We are told, that the South American Indians have a firm hope of the resurrection of their bodies, at a certain period of time ; and that on this account they bury their most valuable treasures with their dead, as well as the most useful conveniencies for future domestic life, such as their bows and arrows : And when they saw the Spaniards digging up their graves for gold and silver, they requested them to forbear scattering the bones of their dead in that manner, lest it should prevent their being raised and united again. [Amy! Make sure an Indian is in agony over this!
We are also told, that the men in Mexico sat down, and the women stood, when they made water, which is an universal custom among our North-American Indians.
Percipacious: Juan Ignacio can attack the trend of people making incorrect assumptions by using it to trick them. Like Iago, he can predict and set them up for an incorrect assumption (spy missions), then just roll with it as they make up their own version of reality. He's really good at it, but he doesn't like himself for the dishonesty of it, but really, they're bringing it on themselves.
As the Indians have no public faith to secure the lives of friendly messengers in war-time, their wars are perpetuated from one generation to another, unless they are ended by the mediation of some neutral party.
vis unita fortior latin for ?united strength is stronger.? Use this phrase twice with Juan Ignacio: First, an Indian wise man uses it to explain to Juan Ignacio why he won?t leave the Creek federation; then Juan Ignacio uses it the night of the Mose ambush to show an even bigger unity between the Indians, Spaniards, and Africans.
"an old war-leader retorted every paragraph he had spoken, and told him, that till then he always had reckoned the English a very wise people, but now he was sorry to find them unwise, in the most material point: adding, "You have made yourself very poor, by sweating, far and near, in our smoky town-houses and hot-houses, only to make a peace between us and the Cheerake, and thereby enable our young mad people to give you, in a short time, a far worse sweat than you have yet had, or may now expect. But, forasmuch as the great English chieftain in Charles Town, is striving hard to have it so, by ordering you to shut your eyes, and stop your ears, lest the power of conviction should reach your heart?I should be as mad as you, if I reasoned any more with one who is willfully blind and deaf." these old Indians are so very wise. Make sure every time they speak, it?s something so profound. And make sure every time there?s young warriors, they?re like ignorant, combative gang members, to show young people how downright stupid gang members and hotheads are.
"...when they had no red enemies to war with, to obtain higher war-titles by scalps" Perhaps this is as much a reason for scalping Spaniards as the money was.
each separate family at last consented to meet their enemies, at the time and place appointed by brotherly request, and there bury the bloody tomohawk under ground, and smoke together, out of the friendly white pipe.
?As the Indians have no public faith to secure the lives of friendly messengers in war-time, their wars are perpetuated from one generation to another, unless they are ended by the mediation of some neutral party.
It is usual for the women to sing the enlivening war song in the time of an attack; and it inflames the men's spirits so highly, that they become as fierce as lions. I never knew an instance of the Indians running off, though from a numerous enemy, and leaving their women and children to their barbarous hands.
As by chance, I walked near to one of them, he suddenly snatched up his gun. No friendly Indians were ever known to do the like, especially so near home, and a considerable camp of his own people: innocence is not suspicious, but guilt.
the bells of my horses, which were grazing near the camp, (used partly on account of the number of big flies that infest the country? open the bells again
he asked me, if I was not afraid to be at camp alone. I told him I was an English warrior, -- my heart was honest -- and as I spoiled nobody, why should I be afraid?
to avoid my being either intercepted on the path, or heard by the quick-ear'd savages, I went a quarter of a mile up the large cane swamp, and passed through it on a south west course, but very slow, as it was a dark thicket of great canes and vines, over-topped with large spreading trees. I seldom had a glimpse of any star to direct my course, the moon being then far spent. About an hour before day-light, I heard them from the top of an high hill, fire off a gun at camp
I pretended to have come from camp, only to confer with him, concerning the situation of Mobille path, and follow his advice, either to proceed on, or return home, being convinced so great a chieftain as he, who lived in defiance of the Muskohge on that remote barrier, must be a better judge, than any of those I had met
He reasoned upon it with strong natural good sense, and shewed me in his museum, the two red-painted scalps of the Muskohge who had murdered our people, and left them in contempt hanging like mangy dogs, with a horse's rope round each of their necks. He then shewed me the flourishing commissions he had received from both French and English
The French never so starved the public cause; and though they frequently gave sparingly, they bestowed their favours with a winning grace, and consummate wisdom
The Choktah, by not having deep rivers or creeks to purify themselves by daily ablutions, are become very irreligious in other respects, for of late years, they make no annual atonement for sin.
that they continue singing hum um um : as their pipes are none of the weakest, the Indians by this means often are led to them from a considerable distance, and then shoot them down.
the she-bear always endeavours to keep apart from the male during the helpless state of her young ones; otherwise he would endeavour to kill them; and that they had frequently seen the she bear kill the male on the spot, after a desperate engagement for the defence of her young ones
I cannot help observing, that in imitation of some other rulers, he persuaded the Indians not to pay us any of our numerous out-standing debts, though contrary to what was specified in our trading licences. They have not courage enough to venture their own valuable lives to those red marts of trade; if they had, they would persuade the Indians rather to pay their debts honestly, year by year, as we trust them in their want, and depend on their promise and fidelity.
But as soon as the Indians understood they would not be credited again, under any circumstances whatsoever, they consented to pay their debts, and declared the Governor to be a great mad-man
French rewards offered either for our scalps or horses-tails; and as the French were usually short of goods, while Great Britain was at war with them, we were liable to most damages from them in time of peace
The sharpness of his own feelings for the base injury he had received from the French, and the well-adapted presents we sent him and his wife and gallant associates, contributed greatly to give a proper weight to our embassy. Such motives as these are too often the mainsprings that move the various wheels of government, even in the christian world.
They returned home extremely well pleased, echoed every thing they had seen and heard; and declared that the Chikkasah, in their daily dress, far exceeded the best appearance their country-men could make in the most showy manner, except those whom the French paid to make their lying mouths strong.
It is surprising to see the long continued speed of the Indians in general -- though some of us have often ran the swiftest of them out of sight, when on the chase in a collective body, for about the distance of twelve miles; yet, afterward, without any seeming toil, they would stretch on, leave us out of sight, and out-wind any horse.
I was accompanied by my two cheerful and gallant Chikkasah friends, already mentioned, with forty of their chosen warriors, brave as ever trod the ground, and faithful under the greatest dangers even to the death. On our way down, escorting the returning cargo
he came up with a camp of Choktah, who seemed to treat him kindly, giving him venison and parched corn to eat: but while he was eating what some of the women had laid before him, one of the Choktah creeped behind him, and sunk his tomohawk into his head.
He kept them regularly piled in a bundle, according to the time he received them, and often shewed them to the traders, in order to expose their fine promising contents
Those traders, one excepted, were very indiscreet, proud and stubborn. They strove who could out-dress, or most vilify the other even before the Indians, who were surprised, as they never heard the French to degrade one another.
Mr. C -- I, the trader I just mentioned, was of a long standing among the Chikkasah, and indefatigable in serving his country, without regarding those dangers that would chill the blood of a great many others; and he was perfect master of the Indian language.
He had the misfortune to be taken very sick on the path, and to lye apart from the camp, according to their usual custom [Ignacio would have to do this when he got smallpox
He had the misfortune to be taken very sick on the path, and to lye apart from the camp, according to their usual custom: a Judas, tempted by the high reward, of the French for killing him, officiously pretended to take great care of him. [Even Indian tribes have traitors.
he evaded their pursuit, by darting himself like a snake, into a deep crevice of the earth. [cool trick. We have a few little caves like this in Florida.
In this manner, fell those two valuable brave men, by hands that would have trembled to attack them on an equality. [How eloquently stated. Make sure ALL Juan Ignacio chapters are in this distinct, narrative voice.
Of this I was soon informed by two Choktah runners, and in a few days time, I sent them back well pleased. [This is how Maquay owners keep guards and maid loyalty ? give them presents and show them love. This is also how Montiano must relate to all Indians. He must learn this the hard way, but then master the art of it. No pre-negotiations, just a good guess at the amount of generosity due after the favor.
I charged them with a long relation of every thing I thought might be conducive to the main point in view; which was, the continuance of a fair open trade with a free people
As only merit in war-exploits, and flowing language and oratory, gives any of them the least preference above the rest, they can form no other idea of kings and subjects than that of tyrants domineering over base slaves: of course, their various dialects have no names for such.
before the expiration of the broken days [counted by breaking off notched segments of a stick. Have Ignacio keep a short-hand journal on a walking stick, similar to the pictures I had Paxon students draw for each vocab word, or time we had appointed,
The Indian head-men deem it a trifle to go hundreds of miles, on such a gladsome errand; and very few of them are slow in honouring the traders with a visit, and a long, rapid, poetic speech. [Make sure Ignacio?s invitations to San Marco sound like this.
They in a very friendly manner, tied plenty of bead-garters round my neck, arms, and legs, and decorated me, a la mode America [Ha! Make sure to use the word America in this old sense, as Native America!.
They told me I was mad, for the roaring of the cannon was as dreadful as the sharpest thunder, and that the French with one of their great balls would tear me in pieces, as soon as I appeared in view. [Wow. Make sure the cannons freak out the Indians in SA like this, too.
They did not seem to regard dying so much, as the genteel appearance they made when they took the open field, on purpose to kill or be killed. They used to tell the English traders they were going on such a day to fight, or die for them, and earnestly importuned them for a Stroud blanket, or white shirt a-piece, that they might make a genteel appearance in English cloth, when they died.
A Choktah warrior of Yahshoo-town, humorously told me afterwards, that ookka hoomeh, "the bitter waters," meaning spirituous liquors, cured some people, while it killed others. He, by the advice of one of the English traders, administered it in pretty good doses to seven of his children in the small-pox, which kept out the corrupt humour, and in a short time perfectly cured each of them, he said, without the least appearance of any dangerous symptoms
. As most of the Indian traders are devotees of Bacchus, their materia medica consists of spirituous liquors, compounded with strong herbs and roots, of which they commonly have a good knowledge: and I have observed those who have left off the trade, and reside in the British settlements, to give their negroes for an anti-venereal, a large dose of old Jamaica and qualified mercury mixt together, -- which, they say, the blacks cheerfully drink, without making a wry face, contrary to their usage with every other kind of physic; and it is affirmed, that by this prescription, they soon get well.
The small pox with which the upper towns of the Muskohge were infected, was of the confluent sort, and it would have greatly depopulated them, if the officious advice of some among us, for all the other towns to cut off every kind of communication with them, on the penalty of death to any delinquent, had not been given and pursued
their chieftain gave out a short oration, without hinting in the most distant manner, at any difficulties they underwent, by reason of their strong attachment to the British Americans, -- concluding, that as the English beloved men were endowed with a surprising gift of expressing a great deal in few words, long speeches would be troublesome to them.
when the Governor gave them, at the entrance of the council-chamber, some trifling presents, he hurried them off with such an air as vexed them to the heart; which was aggravated by his earnestly pointing at a noted war-leader, and myself, with an angry countenance, swearing that Indian had been lately down from Savanah, and received presents. [Show a vivid distinction of the Indians? and Spaniards? respect and gracious hosting by contrasting gracious receptions at Indian towns and the English delegation to St. Augustine against the rejection Primo and Menendez Marques received at Charleston.
they had no public order of credit for their needful travelling charges, though I sollicited his Excellency and the council to grant them one, according to the ancient, hospitable, and wise custom of South-Carolina, to all Indians who paid them a friendly visit, whose journey was far shorter, were often uninvited, and of much less service, than the Chikkasah to the British interest.
He is reported to have been no way churlish to several of the dastardly Choktah, notwithstanding his unprecedented and unkind treatment of our warlike Chikkasah -- two hundred of which would attack five hundred of the others, and defeat them with little loss.
We called them "Parched-corn-Indians," because they chiefly use it for bread, are civilized, and live mostly by planting. As they had no connection with the Indian nations, and were desirous of living peaceable under the British protection, none could have any just plea to kill or inslave them.
But on parting with his companion, he refused absolutely to proceed any farther with them, when they tomohawked him, just as his parted friend was out of the hearing of it. The last afterwards got home, and told us this melancholy exit of our worthy and much-lamented friend -- who died as he lived, always despising life, when it was to be preserved only in a state of slavery. [Make sure that several English sound the battlecry of live free or die, despite their use of slavery.
If our watch-men had not been quite remiss, they would have at least opposed the French emissaries on their first approach to our colonies [when?, and have protected our valuable civilized Indians; for our negroes were afraid to run away, lest they should fall into their [Indians hands. [The Yamasee were probably one of these settlement Indians, until they turned on the English. Show the very same Yamasee returning runaway slaves, and then accepting Mend into the tribe.
For as the Indians reckon imprisonment to be inslaving them, they never forgive such treatment; and as soon as these got clear, they left bloody traces of their vindictive tempers, as they passed along. [another example of intolerance of slavery, yet allowing it for others
Their watchfulness, and our singing [Make sure to have people sing while on long hikes, with the noise of our horses feet, made them hear us before they could possibly see us,
As the power and happiness of Great Britain greatly depends on the prosperity of her American colonies, and the heart-foundness of her civil and ecclesiastical rulers -- and as the welfare of America hangs on the balance of a proper intercourse with their Indian neighbours
The matches of the few shells the French had time to throw, were too long; and as our traders had joined their friends by this time, they pulled out some, and threw out other shells, as near to the enemy as they possibly could.
They soon found those dreadful phantoms were only common French-men, covered with wool-packs, which made their breasts invulnerable to all their well-aimed bullets.
they patted with their hands a considerable time on one of the doors, as a decoy, imitating the earnest rap of the young women who go a visiting that time of night
In their old fields, they have banks of oyster-shells, at the distance of four hundred miles from the sea-shore; which is a visible token of a general deluge, when it swept away the loose earth from the mountains, by the force of a tempestuous north-east wind, and thus produced the fertile lands of the Missisippi, which probably was sea, before that dreadful event.
The industry of the uncorrupt part of the Indians, in general, and of the Chikkasah, in particular, extends no farther than to support a plain simple life, and secure themselves from the power of the enemy, and from hunger and cold.
Instead of reforming the Indians, the monks and friars corrupted their morals: for, in the place of inculcating love, peace, and good-will to their red pupils, as became messengers of the divine author of peace, they only impressed their flexible minds with an implacable hatred against every British subject, without any distinction.
"an English nobleman asked a certain bishop, why he conferred holy orders on such a parcel of arrant blockheads? He replied, because it was better to have the ground plowed by asses, than leave it a waste full of thistles"
There are thousands of the Americans, who I believe have not heard six sermons for the space of above thirty years -- and in fact they have more knowledge than the teachers who are sent to them, and too much religion to communicate with them.
Their supposed holy orders are obtained from a close attention to, and approved knowledge of their sacred mysteries. No temptations can corrupt their virtue on that head: neither will they convey their divine secrets to the known impure.
at the importunate request of the Chikkasah head-men, a memorial, setting forth their having notoriously violated every essential part of their instructions, enticing the Indians also to get drunk, and then taught them to blaspheme their maker.
Yah-Yah-Tustanage, "the Great Mortar," a bitter enemy of the English, soon sent up a company of his war-relations, to persuade them to guard in time, against our dangerous encroachments, by killing all the English, that planted their lands without the general consent of the owners, and to take their black people as a good prize
Upon my urging the absolute necessity of pacifying our old steady friends, by removing the ungenerous cause of their jealousy, he assured me, that he would gladly comply with so just a request, especially, as it exactly coincided with his majesty's proclamation, then fixed on the fort-gate.
When I spoke to the Col. himself on his fatigues and perils, he modestly replied "that while he was performing the needful duties of his office, and acting the part of a beloved man with the swan's wing, white pipe, and white beads, for the general good of his country, and of its red neighbours, he had no leisure to think of any personal dangers that might befall a well-meaning peace-maker"
In brief, able superintendants of Indian affairs, and who will often visit the Indians, are the safest and strongest barrier garrisons of our colonies -- and a proper number of prudent honest traders dispersed among the savages would be better than all the soldiers, which the colonies support for their defence against them.
When an Indian and trader contract friendship, they exchange the clothes then upon them, and afterwards they cherish it by mutual presents, and in general, will maintain it to the death.
When a governor of any of our colonies, is either weak in his intellects, or has self-interested pursuits in view, incompatible with the public good, he will first oppress the Indian traders, and misrepresent all under his government who oppose him
as he knew that peace with the numerous nations of neighbouring Indians was essential to the welfare of a trading colony, he acted the part of the Archimagus, or great beloved man, with the swan's wing, white pipes, and tobacco, between the mischievous Muskohge and our colonies, at Savanah
When a gentleman of abilities employs his talents, in his proper sphere, in promoting the general good of society (instead of forwarding only his own interest) he is both an honour and a blessing to the community: the grateful public always revere such a character, and fail not to hand it down to the latest posterity, to stimulate others to follow the example.
If the governed are convinced that their superiors have a real affection for them, they will esteem it their duty and interest to serve them and take pleasure in it. [Let Montiano learn this from watching Mend earn the loyalty of his men.
We have frequent instances in America, that merely by the power of affability, and good-natured language, the savage Indian, drunk and foaming with rage and madness, can be overcome and brought to weep.
some of the aged warriors narrowly watch the young men who are newly initiated, lest they should prove irreligious, and prophane the holy fast, and bring misfortunes on the out-standing camp.
As soon as they enter the woods, all are silent; and, every day they observe a profound silence in their march, that their ears may be quick to inform them of danger:
the younger of the two discovering our traders on a hill pretty near, addressed them in English, and entreated them to redeem their lives. The elder immediately spoke to him, in his own language, to desist -- on this, he recollected himself, and became composed like a stoic, manifesting an indifference to life or death, pleasure or pain, according to their standard of martial virtue
When a small company go to war, they always chuse to have a swamp along side of them, with a thick covert for their shelter, because a superior number will scarcely pursue them where they might reasonably expect to lose any of their warriors.
If the battle be gained near home, one hero cuts off and carries this member of the dead person, another that, as joyful trophies of a decisive victory. If a stranger saw them thus loaded with human flesh, without proper information, he might conclude them to be voracious canibals, according to the shameful accounts of our Spanish historians.
and if he lose several of his warriors by the enemy, his life is either in danger for the supposed fault, or he is degraded, by taking from him his drum, war-whistle, and martial titles, and debasing him to his boy's name, from which he is to rise by a fresh gradation. This penal law contributes, in a good measure, to make them so exceedingly cautious and averse to bold attempts in war, and they are usually satisfied with two or three scalps and a prisoner.
They readily know the latter, by the blue marks over their breasts and arms; they being as legible as our alphabetical characters are to us. Their ink is made of the soot of pitch-pine, which sticks to the inside of a greased earthen pot; then delineating the parts, like the ancient Picts of Britain, with their wild hieroglyphics, they break through the skin with gair-fish-teeth, and rub over them that dark composition, to register them among the brave; and the impression is lasting? they degraded them in a public manner, by stretching the marked parts, and rubbing them with the juice of green corn, which in a great degree took out the impression.
The concluding caution of the magi to the warriors, points at the different duties of their honourable station, that they should always aspire after martial glory, and prefer their own virtue, and the welfare of their country, more than life itself.
When they see large fish near the surface of the water, they fire directly upon them, sometimes only with powder, which noise and surprize however so stupifies them, that they instantly turn up their bellies and float a top, when the fisherman secures them. [Awesome!
they gather horse chesnuts, and different sorts of roots, which having pounded pretty fine, and steeped a while in a trough, they scatter this mixture over the surface of a middle-sized pond, and stir it about with poles, till the water is sufficiently impregnated with the intoxicating bittern. The fish are soon inebriated, and make to the surface of the water, with their bellies uppermost.
the smaller sort of Indian corn, which usually ripens in two months, from the time it is planted; though it is called by the English, the six weeks corn.
Thus they argue with them, and they are usually as good as their word, by striking a tomohawk into the horse, if he does not observe the friendly caution they gave him at the last parting. [Great mini-scene! Have Mend?s love interest do this. Maybe his love interest dies of smallpox with many others, and he wishes he could take the disease from her, but he appears immune. When he meets another African, they are ?among their own.?
The chief part of the Indians begin to plant their out-fields, when the wild fruit is so ripe, as to draw off the birds from picking up the grain. [Brilliant! This is their general rule, which is in the beginning of May, about the time the traders set off for the English settlements.
At the dawn of it, one by order goes aloft, and whoops to them with shrill calls, "that the new year is far advanced, -- that he who expects to eat, must work, -- and that he who will not work, must expect to pay the fine according to old custom, or leave the town, as they will not sweat themselves for an healthy idle waster" [Great scene!
they had been straggling in the woods, for the space of four years, as they assured me, yet in general they were more corpulent than the Chikkasah who accompanied me, notwithstanding they had lived during that time, on the wild products of the American desarts. This evinces how easily nature's wants are supplied
If an Indian were driven out into the extensive woods, with only a knife and tomohawk, or a small hatchet, it is not to be doubted but he would fatten, even where a wolf would starve. He could soon collect fire, by rubbing two dry pieces of wood together, make a bark hut, earthen vessels, and a bow and arrows; then kill wild game, fish, fresh water tortoises, gather a plentiful variety of vegetables, and live in affluence. [This must be how Juan Ignacio survived his trips. Maybe someone prepares provisions for him but he always forgets to take them, since he doesn?t really need them.
I have the pleasure of writing this by the side of a Chikkasah female, as great a princess as ever lived among the ancient Peruvians, or Mexicans, and she bids me be sure not to mark the paper wrong, after the manner of most of the traders; otherwise, it will spoil the making good bread, or hommony, and of course beget the ill-will of our white women.
wild turkeys, ducks, geese, and pigeons, during the proper season of their being fat and plenty; for the former sort of fowls are lean in the summer, and the others are in these moderate climates only during the winter, for they return northward with the sun.
The fat they fry into clear well-tasted oil, mixing plenty of sassafras and wild cinnamon with it over the fire, which keeps sweet from one winter to another, in large earthen jars, covered in the ground. It is of a light digestion, and nutritive to hair. All who are acquainted with its qualities, prefer it to any oil, for any use whatsoever
In the spring of the year, bear-bacon is a favourite dish with the traders, along with herbs that the woods afford in plenty; especially with the young tops of poke, the root of which is a very strong poison. And this method they pursue year by year, as a physical regimen, in order to purge their blood.
there is not perhaps the like number of mimic mutes on the face of the earth, nor ever were among the old Greek or Roman Pantomimi, as with the Indian Americans, for representing the great and minute things of life, by different gestures, movements of the body, and expressive countenances; and at the same time they are perfectly understood by each other. [This is how they had to communicate with Mend and Mont and other tribes.
They likewise alter, and fix all the springs of the lock, with others of the sort they may have out of use; but such a job costs the red artist about two months work. [Mend can see an Indian working on this same project for two months.
In this manner they proceed, till each of the head men hath given his opinion on the point in debate. Then they sit down together, and determine upon the affair. [Ignacio must have seen this in action when delivering the invitation to San Marcos.
There are many petty crimes which their young people are guilty of, -- to which our laws annex severe punishment, but their's only an ironical way of jesting. They commend the criminal before a large audience, for practising the virtue, opposite to the crime, that he is known to be guilty of.
They frequently tell us, that though we are possessed of a great deal of yellow and white stone, of black people, horses, cows, hogs, and every thing else our hearts delight in -- yet they create us as much toil and pain, as if we had none, instead of that ease and pleasure, which flow from enjoyment; therefore we are truly poor, and deserve pity instead of envy
The old men tell us, they remember our colonies in their infant state, -- that when the inhabitants were poor and few in number, they maintained prosperous wars against the numerous combined nations of red people, who surrounded them on all sides; because in those early days, the law of reason was their only guide. In that time of simplicity, they lived after the temperate manner of the red people. They copied after honest nature, in their food, dress, and every pursuit, both in domestic and social life.
They say, their titles of war invariably bespeak the man, as they always make them the true attendants of merit, never conferring the least degree of honour on the worthless. [Mend must have earned a war title. Make sure Chief Jospogue is in Mend?s Yamasee chapter, perhaps as a father figure.
They say, if our laws were honest, or wisely framed, they would be plain and few, that the poor people might understand and remember them, as well as the rich
One law cause which the Chikkasah attended, proved tedious, and was carried contrary to their opinion of justice and equity: on their return to their own country, they said, that two or three of their old women would have brought in a quicker, and honester verdict.
He said, if our physicians used simples in due time, to assist nature, instead of burning corrosive mixtures, they would have no occasion to dismember poor people, cutting off their limbs in so horrid a manner
their sacred office requiring them to give an honest copy to all others, as the young people imbibed from their teachers example, either good or bad principles, which must benefit or injure themselves, and the community.
My Indian friend said, as marriage should beget joy and happiness, instead of pain and misery, if a couple married blindfold, and could not love each other afterwards, it was a crime to continue together, and a virtue to part, and make a happier choice; and as the white people did not buy their wives after the manner of the Indians, but received value along with them, in proportion to their own possessions, whatsoever the woman brought with her, she ought to be allowed to take back when they separated, that her heart might weigh even, and nothing be spoiled.
Young glittering courtiers may think their merit exceedingly depreciated, to have the offer of the Ohio government conferred on either of them -- as it is now chiefly inhabited by long-legged, tawny hunters, who are clothed in winter with the shaggy skins of wild beasts, and are utterly unlearned in the polished art of smiling, when their hearts are displeased at the rash conduct of high-headed rulers
The province is a large peninsula, consisting chiefly of sandy barrens; level four ground, abounding with tussucks; here and there is some light mixt land; but a number of low swamps, with very unwholesome water in general. In proportion as it is cleared, and a free circulation of air is produced, to dispel the noxious vapours that float over the surface of this low country, it may become more healthful; though any where out of the influence of the sea air, the inhabitants will be liable to fevers and agues.
The method these Indians took to keep off those tormenting insects, as their safety would not allow them to make a fire, lest the smoke should guide their watchful enemies to surprise them, was, by anointing their bodies with rank fish oil, mixed with the juice or ashes of indigo. This perfume, and its effluvia, kept off from them every kind of insect.
Keep a list of artifacts that people could actually see nowadays, such as Mont's document package, the parish register, Mend's petitions, and incorporate artifacts found by Deegan and Halbert.
Quick build is poor construction (fort Diego?) support posts ax-hewn not
saw, planted directly in soil-terrible.
4 guys put one up in less than a month. [I think I got this from the tour guide at Middleton in Charleston. Maybe Mend worked on this fort.
Have Juan Ignacio blend his religions as he is dying. He follows the Indian religion by asking that his bones be buried with the Uchises so that, by the Christian religion, he will meet his parents for the first time in heaven.
Suleiman represents the need for human endorsement. He wants Charleston slaves to see him as a leader; he encourages them to strive for freedom. He wants Charleston English to see him as trustworthy; when the burning lady blames him, he accepts Father Le Jau's claims that he is the most loyal slave in the colony. He wants the Yamasee Indians to see him as a warrior. He wants the Spaniards to see him as an equal citizen. He wants the king to prove this by signing his freedom paper. he gets partial human endorsement, but it's never enough. He eventually sees that the king doesn't even see or sign papers, and even when he does, it easily gets ignored by Spaniards. It's all a mirage. When it comes out that he was the conspirator the lady screamed about, he has an identity crisis that he is not trustworthy after all - not to slaves or whites. He confesses this to the friar, who compares it to Jesus being innocently crucified for our freedom. Su's crisis erupts at Bloody Mose. He fights for the woman who burned and all the others who were killed seeking freedom. He purges his faith in mankind to save him.
The opening chapter of Mose must set the stage for Suleiman's journey as well as the entire book and climax. The entire book is framed around power and faith. Su quickly learns that education brings power, but hits a ceiling of human endorsement, where he fails. He eventually has to settle for God's grace.
In this chapter, Su is treated by slaves as a natural leader because he learns fast (like Josh). He encourages them to learn each other's language, work together toward freedom, and have nothing to do with the African slave catchers that get enslaved. Then he is treated by the English as a trustworthy slave. His owner sends him to town on errands and to earn extra money. A woman tied to a stack for conspiracy screams she is innocent and blames Su. Father Le Jau comes to his defense and endorses him as the most trustworthy slave in Charleston. The traders take that endorsement and hire Su to manage the horses on their envoy to the Yamasee. When the Yamasee rebel, he does not remain loyal to the English, but rather escapes with the Yamasee. With the Yamasee, he earns their respect as a trusted warrior, but eventually, he seeks human-endorsed freedom through the Spanish.
Indians made arrowroot flour from coontie plants. Have that available in the market in St. Augustine. Then as wheat flour gets scarce, Coontie arrowroot flour also becomes scarce. The Indians are starting to fight over the roots of the Coonties and the Coonties are dying in the hot spots.
Have Francesca try to buy arrowroot flour from an Indian lady who jacked up the price and Francesca can't afford it. So Francesca asks her how she makes it. The Indian woman says, why would I tell you that.. then you will tell everyone else and go take all the Coonties.
Francesca, understood. She apologized for asking. But then later she saw the Indian woman going into the woods. She's sneakily snuck after her and followed her and watched as the Indian woman found some Coonties, pulled up their roots, cut off the branches, and went home with the roots.
But the lady had some protection against the Coonties being toxic. And then Francesca tried the same thing and got sick from it.
I created this chart in Google Sheets from SPVCA board meeting minutes. I didn't get it all filled in. On 8/4/2025, Ed Olsen asked me for details to put on Ivan Juric's Lifetime Achievement Award. While pulling some together, I suggested Ed ask key people to look back through their emails for side project that involved Ivan. I shared this board chart from Google Sheets with Ed. Soon after, I got share requests from Jim Valentine and Bill Smith. Bill Smith requested editor access, but I changed it to viewer like Jim and Ed. Then I realized Bill could help fill it in and was quite tech savvy. I downloaded a backup of the chart then granted Bill editor access to the Google Sheet. Then I saw that you could grant comment-only access, so I changed Ed and Jim's access to Commenter.
Rick and Roz Edwards gave me a card at GTM. It is a Jacksonville Shell Club with their name handwritten on it. I only saw them on the third Saturday of each month. The card says to check out the club website: Jaxshells.org.
I'm guessing at these dates, but I think they told me they've been leading the Guided Beach Exploration at GTM since it opened in 2005. Back then, they went at low tide and the group caravanned to one of the reserve beaches. Later, the GTM Volunteer Coordinator insisted the outing needed to stick to a schedule. After that, it happens 9am-11am on the third Saturday of every month. High tide is definitely a problem.
Rick has such a large collection of sea shells that he gave me a bunch to give to kids in the visitor center. He is cataloging his collection for donation to the University of Florida to write off the monetary value for a tax break. I asked why he wouldn't donate it to GTM. He said he won't because "they lose things here." He said they lost a large collection he had given them before. Nevertheless, he build display boards to be kept at the visitor center for use in the monthly Guided Beach Exploration.
"Associate Justice Anthony Kennedy penned the majority opinion in the landmark decision heralded by gay activists from coast to coast, writing that: 'The Constitution promises liberty to all within its reach, a liberty that includes certain specific rights that allow persons, within a lawful realm, to REVIEW COPY define and express their identity'."
Chris Hastings visited me at the GTM front desk on 8/29/2025. He told me stories about shrimping at Guana Dam. He said he was on the lake side at night one time and something bumped into the back of his legs. He panicked, but then saw it was a small manatee. After that, he said 'they' built wooden gates inside the dam to prevent larger animals from getting through it. He thought it was in 2018, so I dated this entry in the summer of 2018.
Sean Haymes (spelled with an m) came to check out the GTM visitor center in the summer of 2025. He asked me about the wildlife there, particularly the Florida panthers. I said per our lead ranger Zach, we haven't had a panther east of the Intracoastal Waterway in a decade. People are reporting sightings, but Zach doubts them.
Sean said there is at least one panther in the WMA. He said it is sometimes seen by fishermen across from Nocatee Preserve. He said a female panther lives in the Nocatee Preserve but swims across the ICW with her cubs to visit the WMA. He showed me a video his friend posted on YouTube on 11/15/2022. Here is the video:
https://youtu.be/83Lua2wFs4I?si=_9YiB7hWx_M9OmyL
Title: Fl panther just got breakfast of a shell bed and is in the grass, heading to the tree line
Description: Video from Tom Voutour
Sean left me his number in case Zach wanted to ask him about it:
Sean Haymes
904-502-3595
A woman chatted with me at GTM long enough to hear about my history project. She said she had just moved to St. Augustine and lives right next to Fort Mose. She wanted to visit there and invited me to accompany her. She wrote her contact information on a note pad that was pre-printed with her name and the title MD. She joined the Friends of GTM. I later looked her up in Little Green Light and saw her address was Gainesville. I never did contact her. But here is the contact information she wrote down:
Angeli Maun Akey, MD
352.316.1686
nfimangeli@gmail.com
I'm guessing at this date.
Julie Mickler chatted with me at GTM long enough to hear about my history project. She said she'd like to see it and help. She lives in Julington Creek now. She gave me her contact information: juliemickler@yahoo.com, 904-403-9221. Local source.
One of the GTM beach cleanup crew said GTM should put buckets at the beach lots for people to pick up trash. She said Palm Beach County leaves stacks of buckets like the ones at Home Depot.
During a conversation about the Saturday activities at GTM, I told a family next Saturday is beach cleanup day, where we identify and count what we find. The father said it is absolutely necessary to do that. He was from Philadelphia, visiting his sister who lives here. She said St. Johns County banned smoking on public beaches a year ago. I highly doubted that because cigarettes were by far the most common item found in the 6-month data I had pulled for St. Johns County. I looked it up. They banned smoking in city parks on 8/8/2022.
Voddie said, "We are constantly warned about the dangers of toxic masculinity, but when a biological male MMA fighter fractured the orbital bone of a biological female during an officially sanctioned REVIEW COPY event,5 we responded with a wink and a nod because he identified as a woman."
This is such a great example of how much this world is built on lies. I've said it for years, but the liars are contradicting themselves full scale.
However, both Voddie and I are lumping people together, simply joining in the with lies. I say "the liars" without specifying who. Voddie said "we responded", insinuating society at large, and even including himself.
Father, your kingdom come. Soon. Please. Now.
Lea Lent called me today all excited to tell me the big news. Her house is undergoing major repairs, such that she has to stay with her daughter, Lauren, while the work is done. She went out to see the progress and lo and behold, there were two sea turtle nests behind her house. There was one very large set of tracks and one small set. Both nests were flagged and roped off. Lea encouraged me to go see them. She said the work on her house should be done in June or July. I said that means she'll be back in time to see the baby turtles emerge. She said she didn't think so. She thinks it just take a few weeks. She said, "At least nobody will come steal the eggs." I said, "You mean a raccoon?" She said, "I mean people." I asked, "People take the eggs?" She said, "Oh yeah. They used to do that all the time." I asked, "What for?" She said, "To eat 'em. They're better than chicken eggs." I asked, "In what way?" She said, "They just taste better. The Minorcans used to come take the eggs all the time. Now it's illegal, thank God."
I am not a psychiatrist. I'm not a psychologist. I'm not a counselor. I'm not a pastor. I'm not a medical doctor. I'm just a master of the pity party. I've got the pity party down to assigns. A science
I just went and got an ice cream cone big enough to last my whole drive home through the reserve. I was just aching. If you get to the point where you need comfort food, that just means it's too late. It means you have neglected something. It's just like when you have a headache and try to take aspirin or a prescription. Painkiller. They almost never work. After you have a headache. You have to take them before the pain gets bad. That's a pity party. You have to address it before it turns into a run for comfort food.
My pity party this time was an event triggered by an event at the St. Augustine historical society. It was a meet and greet of the creators of a pictorial history of the black community of St. Augustine. I had written a whole Web channel on the Black History of St. Augustine a good 13 years ago. That's why I was going to this thing. But in those 13 years, I've been working on my big history project. And I was sure to bump into people who knew me back then and would see that I am still not finished with my own history project. I am still harvesting other people's completed work never to complete my own. I did not want to meet and greet anybody on those terms. I had driven down there after work and even had an early dinner from McDonald's drive-thru so that I could park early in the historical society's parking lot to make sure to get a parking spot because it is such a tiny lot and it filled up last time I went there. I sat in that tiny parking lot an hour in advance eating my McDonald's. And my heart just kept sinking more and more because I did not want to go in there. I talked to God about it. I didn't feel like I got an answer. My heart just didn't rise up at all. I just wanted to go home. I wanted to go work on my own work. I should not have signed up for that thing. A meet and greet? What was I thinking. I guess I was going to see more black history and collect more material for my timeline and never finish my timeline. I can do that from home. I'm all talk. No action. I drove away and looked for any kind of dessert that would last my entire drive home. I ended up with a giant ice cream cone. And it did a great job for me. The whole way, I was talking to God about why I ran away and why I bought comfort food. McDonald's and ice cream. Why was I doing that? I evaluated the situation and felt stronger that I knew what happened. I knew what I need to do. I need to finish my own work.
My pants were blissfully loose when I put them on this morning. I was so happy my dieting had been working. Not dieting, but eating right. And now as I drive home after my McDonald's and ice cream, those same pants are Todd around both eyes and my waist.
Email subject: If you’re exhausted, read this.
Title meme: As a woman, do you ever feel like you wear all the hats... all the time?
The friend hat — ensuring coffee dates are on the calendar.
The sister hat — making sure all family drama is settled before a get-together. [Amy - as if we have that power over our family0
The mom hat — getting the kids up and out the door while keeping the house in tip-top shape. [Amy - as if it's the woman's job. When I did this, my kids hated me and I hated being the maid.]
The wife hat — caring for your husband but double-checking he feels like he still matters. [Amy - for those with a good husband]
The Bible study hat — completing all homework in time for Bible study.
The teammate hat — supporting, encouraging and empowering your people to do their job. [Amy - "Your people"?]
It can be exhausting.
But can I let you in on something I’m learning? We were not created to do all things. We also weren’t created to be all things to all people. [Amy - I'm sick of cliches]
When we have to take a hat off, it can be defeating. We can find ourselves questioning, Why can’t I get this right? But it’s in this place that we can be reminded of the gospel: Everything we lack is an opportunity for us to find God in our weakness.
2 Corinthians 12:9 says
My grace is sufficient for you.
There’s grace in humility
There’s freedom in humility.
There’s peace in humility.
So to those of us wearing all the hats, the ones feeling like we can’t be everything to everyone, embrace this truth: We were never meant to.
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I am not a physical body with a temporary lifespan and a soul that might live forever. I am a soul soul with an eternal lifespan currently in a temporary body.
In Moe's, the Catholic priests refer to the natives and the slaves as souls. When they speak to them as souls, some of them can take it very seriously. Some of them can say I am not a body. I am not a human. I am not a slave. I am a soul. I'm going to live forever.
That is how I am living right now. I am not a human with a soul. I am a soul in a human body right now.
Products: Make T-shirts like this and bracelets. I am a soul.
Amy,
We're back with another in-depth video, and I don't know if I've ever been more excited about a conversation than I am about this one.
One thing that is essential to becoming a better student of the Bible is the ability to understand the scriptures from a Jewish perspective — after all, Christianity emerged out of a Jewish context!
That's why I wanted to talk to Rabbi Schneider, a Messianic Jew. He was born into a Jewish family, grew up with Jewish roots, and he's now saved by faith in Jesus Christ as Lord and risen savior. He brings an invaluable perspective to our faith with his first-hand knowledge of Jewish beliefs, history and traditions.
I believe this conversation will deepen and strengthen your faith, and no topic or question was off limits in this video as we discuss some of the most significant religious questions related to Christianity and Judaism!
Click below to watch the video:
MY CONVERSATION WITH RABBI SCHNEIDER
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In an otherwise blank email from Sue Olsen, probably forwarded:
As the world fights to figure everything out, I'll be holding doors for strangers, letting people cut in front of me in traffic, saying good morning, keeping babies entertained in grocery lines, stopping to talk to someone who is lonely, tipping generously, waving at police, sharing food, giving children a thumbs-up, being patient with sales clerks, smiling at passersby, and buying a stranger a cup of coffee.
WHY? Because I will not stand to live in a world where love is invisible.
Join me in showing kindness, understanding, and judging less.
Be kind to a stranger, give grace to friends who are having a bad day, be forgiving with yourself.
If you can't find kindness, BE kindness
A woman walked into a nature reserve’s office. She tapped her name on the welcome screen kiosk. Bink. A tadpole appeared above her name to indicate she had checked in. She approached the receptionist (that’s me).
“I’m here to pull invasive plants out of the reserve. Do you have a list of plants that grow here?”
“Do I ever!” I exclaimed. I slammed a four-inch-thick binder onto the counter and flipped open the pages. “All these plants, complete with pictures and information.”
The woman glowed with excitement as she flipped through the plant pages. “Do you have this in something I can carry?” Granted, she wasn’t much larger than the binder. While I sat stumped, she clarified, “Do you have a digital copy?”
Long story short, she got a PDF she can flip through on her phone while out in the reserve pulling out invasive plants. The binder? It’s still in the front office as an artifact.
What is a PDF anyway? It’s a picture file at heart, an array of colored lights. But unlike its older siblings JPG, PNG, and good old BMP, PDF is the only image file format that can hold multiple pages in one file. That’s what documents tend to do. They tend to grow beyond one page. My sister learned this when her scanner turned her 30-page report into 30 separate JPG files. She said, “I can’t email this report in 30 pieces!” Nope. Choose the PDF format and try again.
PDF’s creator gave it some lame name like Portable Document Format. It certainly is more portable than that four-inch binder. Still, I prefer its spirit name, Paperless Document File. For me, paperless is a way of life.
Thanks to PDF, I have squeezed ten file cabinets of important papers into a digital storage drive that fits in a shirt pocket. I call this “going paperless”. If you opt for PDF before it’s even printed, we call that “going green”. That decision saves trees. Trees grow leaves. Leaves are green. Leaves absorb carbon dioxide for their photosynthesis addiction. It’s a whole thing.
So why would this woman at the reserve want to pull out perfectly healthy plants that are happily sucking up all the catastrophic CO2? Well, that’s another whole thing. Here’s a short answer.
And that’s where Computer Corner is going, going, gone. I am trading my Computer Corner writing time for greener pastures in the new Native Garden Club.
I hope the Computer Corner column has helped you in your computer life. I still write computer tips on my blog, PaperlessPonteVedra.com. I still offer free computer help at the clubhouse by appointment. Computers aren’t going anywhere, and neither am I.
When I tried to log in to PPV admin today, I received a message on the login screen saying my password expired. I had not set any password expiration setting in WordPress or Ultimate Member. But I do remember UM getting hacked not long ago. Luckily, I still have no users, except the 78 fake account I have rejected so far. A Google search got me to UM's notice that they set that setting in response to the security incident. I took their advice and logged out out users including myself and forced a new password.
Is Emory a guy?
As I tried to learn this, I found these distinctions directly conflict with other species. I'm still not confident about these.
Feature Male Female
Birds-eye shape oval round
Belly shape sucked in flat front
Upper shell butt curved in like a jock cup curved out like a skirt
Lower shell butt c for cup v for vagina
Conversation with FWC Officer Ian Lemaster. 9/17/2024
Reds are running.
They always breed offshore; that's why you can't keep them from offshore.
They come in Matanzas Inlet every year and make their way north, even against the current, probably to Georgia.
They reach Guana around September of every year.
They came to GTM on Valentine's Day. We had a great chat and exchanged contact information.
Edward Voutour
Mickler descendant
Grew up in Palm Valley
Grandfather owned(?) Micklers Landing?
There were 3 artesian wells along A1A. "We used to buy a fifth of whisky and drive up the beach from Palm Valley to Hannah Park." He's ashamed of it now, and very happy to hear the government is protecting the coast. He thinks it should be illegal to build on the ocean now.
I think he said he moved to the west coast and recently moved back to an entirely different Ponte Vedra.
Wife:
Cindy Voutour
128 Sherwood Ave
St Augustine, FL 32084-2228
(904) 819-0879
Keith Poythress visited GTM to check out the visitor center. He asked me about the history and artifacts. He knew a lot of local history. He wanted to talk more, and so did I. He wrote his contact information on my attendance note pad. It had the date 2/27/2025 at the top of the sheet, but it feels like it was more in the late summer that he was there.
He was a black guy. He said he was on the board of Pie in the Sky and one of the founding owners of St. Augustine Fish Camp and The Distillery.
Keith Poythress
904-616-6054
Some GTM visitors asked me what is the best trail to see birds at GTM. I asked lead ranger Zach Lepera. He said he sees a lot of small birds in the middle of Purple East trail. That is where I also filmed the trees humming with what I thought was pollinators. Zach also said the Orange/Blue trail loop holds many birds. The savannah just inside the WMA south entrance has many birds, especially raptors.
On my last beach walk with God, I was having a pity party about being vilified at work for most of my work life, despite always getting rave reviews on my performance. I learned not to lean on other people about it because they understandably think I'm the problem since it keeps happening. I was especially hurting because I had confided this problem to my sister in Christ at GTM, Josie, and she took the other people's side (in my eyes). When she asked how I was doing, I said I was riding the leaf God gave me in the turbulent waters of living on the edge of being fired.
I confided to Josie that Stephanie and Dale want me gone, and I see no sign of Lia vetoing that because Lia doesn't acknowledge me when she walks past me at the front desk, nor did her boss, Mike Shirley, and I don't know why. I admitted it might be a culture at GTM, since ranger Kala broke down in tears with me one day saying how "the culture here sucks" and "Candace doesn't even look at us when she walks by." Nevertheless, the people who decide if I have a job here make it clear they can't stand me and throw false accusations at me almost daily, which I have given up trying to correct because they throw out their accusations while walking away.
With God, I have learned to be content with whatever he gives me, even if it means homelessness and starvation. It is certainly not my first response - that is always fear. But it doesn't take long for me to replace that fear with acceptance of God's will.
What I have not mastered is the resentment toward the people trying to harm me. I hear Jesus admonishing me to love my enemies. In fact, I actually value the trial because it gives me a clear path obeying the Lord. Well, it's not so clear. I clearly hear, "Love your enemies." And I clearly answer, "Yes, but how?" I made the mistake of confiding this to Josie. Her answer was telling: "Do they have to be enemies?" She followed that up with a story showing a vulnerable side of Stephanie. Ever since that conversation, I've answered silently in my head, "Yes. An enemy is anyone who is trying to hurt you."
That statement was repeating in my head over and over as I walked with God at Middle Beach. Yes, they are my enemies. But Lord, I have to accept that you love them and you want me to love them. But how? The resentment was visceral. I wanted the community to know what was happening. I wanted video and audio recording of every moment of my work life. But no, only I get to see the bad behavior that seeks to send me to the homeless shelter. The illogical butchering of truth was revolting. These were the feelings in my heart, but I didn't express them to God. I didn't want to. I didn't want him to tell me how to be nice to someone who doesn't deserve it.
It didn't take long. I don't deserve His niceness. "My grace is sufficient for you," he said. "Full of grace and truth," he said. My deepest desire is to be like Jesus. Jesus is full of grace and truth. Those are THE definition of beautiful to me. Are not the classiest people on earth the ones who exhibit grace?
What is grace, anyway? Western culture has hijacked the word to mean something so vain. Move without jerking. That's grace. My first husband called me Grace several times a week, every time I tripped or bumped something. I don't think John was referring to smooth moves when he said, "full of grace and truth."
I looked it up. John's use of the word grace means undeserved merit.
GRACE = UNDESERVED MERIT
It took me about a year to recite that in my head. I want to be graceful. I am eternally grateful for God accepting me into his kingdom when I ABSOLUTELY do not qualify. I am an undeserving recipient of forgiveness, unconditional love, an eternal outlook, abundant health, and abundant material provision. I am not worthy. When I set a picture of my behavior alongside a picture of Jesus' behavior, I am hopeless. All I can do is hope that His offer of grace is true.
"Full of grace and truth," John said. If I don't have that hope, I have no life at all.
All these thoughts floated through my head, but the only thing that formulated into words was, "Yes, but how?"
GRACE = UNDESERVED MERIT
Again, he said it to me. Not audibly. Just clear words that stood up tall against the whirlpool of thoughts and emotion.
GRACE = UNDESERVED MERIT
I knew it was God. But just to be sure, I looked down to see if it was confirmed with a shark tooth. It was.
Yes sir. I must give undeserved merit to those who are trying to demerit me. What on God's green earth could possibly construe that as truth?
God can. "For nothing shall be impossible with God" (Luke 1:37).
It felt impossible to me. But I had faith in my Lord. I had faith that my own undeserved merit would merit me with the next answer. I went home and waited for it.
It started in two days. My beach walk and shark tooth happened on Wednesday. On Friday, I was presented again with that daily reminder to come up with a new password for my work login. I use bible verses for that task. It allows me to 'meditate' on a verse for the next three months by typing it every time my computer times out. But I've received this warning for two weeks and still couldn't decide on a verse. As I sat frustrated with indecision on Friday morning, these words came to my mind.
"Ask Stephanie."
That could not have been me. I've been counting the minutes till Stephanie would be retired and out my life, or at least out of the position to eliminate my job. Ask that 'enemy' for a bible verse? Say what?
Yes sir.
"Stephanie, I have the most random question. You know how I use bible verses for passwords? I've been stumped for two weeks now trying to pick one. Do you have a bible verse that you like that I can use? I know this is completely out of place. Just say no if you don't want to."
"Yes," she said. "I have a few of them I like. I'll have to think of them. I'll get back to you on that."
Thirty minutes later, she handed me a piece of paper with three verses. I looked at them, got excited about them, and thanked her profusely. The first one was my first choice. "For nothing will be impossible with God" (Luke 1:37). The song Unstoppable God popped in my head, the chorus repeating, "Nothing shall be impossible, your kingdom reigns unstoppable..." My heart bounced with the memory of bouncing to that song at Celebration Church, and in my car, and in my condo, where I learned to reverse bounce so as not to disturb my downstairs neighbor. I told Stephanie I'll be singing that song for three months. She smiled. Was my enemy now my friend? Absolutely not. Was she my sibling under God. Absolutely. She just proved it. Did she deserve merit for that? Yes. Did I have to butcher truth to give her merit? No. It was all on the up and up. I happily gave merit for that with no obligation to merit her employer skills or integrity.
I couldn't find what aspect of my computer life was asking for a password. I couldn't find any sign of it in the Windows Notifications panel located right where the prompt pops up. The Windows Settings password referred to it as 'domain password'. Domain? I waited till the prompt appeared again, then found myself at the 'domain password' screen. I put my creative spin on the verse till it made me grin at my own cleverness. Norton Password Manager high-fived me by estimating the time it would take to crack that password being "the age of the universe." I pulled up a YouTube video of Elevation Worship singing Unstoppable God, then carried my phone around the empty exhibit hall to let the empty building worship with me. I bounced as I walked, just as I did at Celebration Church.
I went back to my desk and texted a thank you to Stephanie, and added a link to the song.
Then the REAL test happened.
I pulled up my task list. Time to build tomorrow's welcome screen. I looked at the calendar for the next day, which was Tuesday because this was Saturday. The only thing on the calendar was the Education team hosting a class from Nease High School for saltmarsh seining. The teacher was Jennie Fagan.
Jennie Fagan. An old enemy. One who actually did block my employment. When I first started working at GTM, Josie heard me say I taught for one year at Nease High School. She asked if I knew Jennie Fagan, who was a great teacher who interacted with the reserve a lot. Yes, I knew Jennie Fagan. I did not tell her what happened with Jennie Fagan. I just smiled like I agreed that Jennie Fagan was a great person and a great teacher. Now I might see her again. Josie might try to reconnect us. Josie will expect me to be delighted and want to work with Jennie. Josie doesn't know what happened.
Josie didn't know what Dale and Stephanie were doing to me, either. She actually suggested I check my facial expressions. She told a story about her mother hurting a cashier's feelings with angry body language that had nothing at all to do with the cashier. Josie seemed to think I was the problem, and that I was imagining enemies, like someone with a victim mentality, which my gaslighting ex-husband accused me of.
Lord, I don't want to be here. I want to be with you, where truth reigns. This world is lies lies and more lies. Take me home where I belong.
Jennie Fagan's words rang in my head from my one and only lunch period in the teacher's lounge. "The black kids are the best athletes because they grow up running from the po po." She was nicer to me at first. "We're going to groom you into a science teacher. If we like you, we'll keep you."
I cannot remember a single time Jennie observed my performance as a teacher, nor did I notice any grooming. Instead, I got barked at by two of the teachers I was assigned to assist. One of those teachers, Summer Anderson, barked every single day at her classes. "Shut up and grow up!" rings through my head to this day, a decade later, and I'm sure in the memories of the students she aimed it at. I can only assume these teachers were Jennie's eyes and ears, and the reason she never engaged with me about "grooming", and did not renew my contract. That's another one I had to give to God. I can't live with the belief that humans can decide whether I have a job even when I earn high scores and accolades from my students and constituents.
So that po-po comment was my ammunition. The one thing I could hold onto that Jennie Fagan's judgment of me could not be trusted.
Might Jennie remember me in front of Josie?
Might she discredit me?
Might I bring in my high performance scores and the notes of praise and appreciation from students and their parents?
Might I try to discredit the person trying to discredit me?
Might I just run away from this planet as soon as Elon Musk finds a way to unlock the gravitational chains?
GRACE - UNDESERVED MERIT
Yes sir.
But how?
Jennie will be here on Tuesday. Maybe she won't even come in the building, since seining is an outside activity. But if I were still a teacher, I would not miss a chance to expose my students to the exhibit hall. What will my countenance be? Fake? Awkward? Confused? Stoic?
Now is my test. Now is my chance. Now is my opportunity to exercise actual grace.
But how?
I'm listening, Lord.
I'm listening.
Dictated while driving to church. It started with the concept that many tough decisions are recurring. The situation presents itself again, and again we have to decide. In this case, I had decided to leave Greg's food all to him so that he would see how much he was throwing away. He even seems to think he's getting his nutrition just because he bought it.
Now for the car dictation:
One of my confusion points from this morning was trying to bring food with me for lunch because I was going to go Garden after church. As I tried to find food that was easy to take on the road, I saw all of Greg's food going bad that he bought and didn't eat. I should have grabbed some of it. Pre-made meals. Meals. It all looked great. And I did that in the beginning. But then I felt confused about the financial arrangement between us. I did not like the idea of benefiting from him financially when I'm just trying to help him as a friend. That is confusing because he would like to contribute financially and he is uncomfortable imposing on me. So in the beginning I said I will eat your discards. But even that statement was a little humiliating and then over time I noticed how much anxiety I had. Just asking him if he was throwing away something or going to eat it. Some of some of the things he actually didn't know yet. It was an uncomfortable recurring conversation and then he started saying He bought such and such food for us. Then I felt obligated to eat such and such food that he bought. Then I felt obligated to also buy food for him when I was shopping. And then I got back into all that. How much time and money am I going to waste on food that someone else doesn't want. Or how much time am I going to spend pondering whether a person would like this or not. It is so much anxiety that I insist on keeping our food separate. So instead of taking advantage of the food, he throws away as easy free grabable food for me, I decided to leave the line clear. Clear. Him throw away his own food so he knew it was being thrown away and maybe be a little more motivated to eat the food. Maybe feel a little more concerned about money. Maybe think for himself and do for himself rather than blurring the lines and hoping I will do for him and think for him. All right, yes that is the better decision and it keeps coming back to me every time I'm in that predicament of looking in the refrigerator for something to eat and seeing something that he has left for days and I would still eat. The decision keeps coming back. It has to be made again and again and who has time for that?
I am driving to church stifling tears because of how hard it was to get ready for church without having my outfit already picked out without having my meal already prepped and with Greg trying to be social while I was trying to think. It is such a common moment for me. I can't think. I thought I should just not go to church. Every outfit I tried didn't work. Mostly because all the pants were too tight but also because the ones that might fit needed to be ironed and I had not already done that and didn't have time to do that. It's a terrible feeling and it starts a day in despair and a low-lying belief in my own incompetence and hopelessness. This kind of confusion happens at all levels to all people and we all have our ways of negotiating it when it happens. But it can still be there while we are driving. It kills my will to live in this world. It kills my will to go to church. It kills my will to go to anything social that I have to look at what I'm wearing. But it can also kill me or someone else. If I am distracted while I'm driving. It can also kill my job if I forget important things. Confusion is catastrophic. The devil thrives on it. The world falls apart by it. Other people misinterpret a confused persons, behavior and responses. Other people often filter that through their own insecurities to a personal offense of some sort. Confusion destroys relationships and human interactions and even simple transactions. Josie's mom was upset about something and slammed her groceries. Anne, the conveyor. The cashier thought it was something about him.
Bert Charset came to GTM with (his wife) to see John before he retired. John did not answer his office phone or the radio. I opened the old news clipping binders for Bert to leaf through while I found John.
They visited in front of my desk, so I took what notes I could from their conversation.
John started in Oct 1990 when Randy was ranger. John lived onsite at the time.
Bert now lives in St. Augustine South.
Bert said the Harrisons are living in Panama last he heard, but he saw them at a Florida birding festival.
Bert asked what's been the major changes in the last 10 years?
John: lots of biology water research, mangroves, oysters
After Bert left, John told me that Bert was the state biologist for Guana River State Park.
I am stepping down as Treasurer of SPVCA. If they cannot find a replacement, they might ask me to do it for pay. I did the math:
Hours Monthly
+16 [4 hours every Monday]
+4 [every month-end Treasury report]
+.7 [(2) five-week months each year (8 hours / 12 months = 0.7 hours per month)]
+.7 [membership renewals in September (2 hrs/week x 4 weeks / 12 months)]
=21.4 [coincides with Ivan's 20-25 hours per month on the Treasury position description]
$480 [$20/hour]
DON'T DO IT!
Glenn and Ron already complain how I do things. They both want accrual accounting but can't explain how to make it happen. I guess it could if they pay $25/month for Quickbooks. It doesn't matter when I am volunteering. It DOES matter if I am a business. I cannot afford to ruin my reputation. Even more, I cannot afford to let my brain be swamped in defensiveness the propels me to spend all my time protecting my reputation.
Also, I invariably begin to despise any ongoing commitments because they keep me from my writing. I can't say no because I already committed perpetutally! Just stick with one-off consultations at $50 per hour.
DON'T DO IT AMY!!!!
Hello. My name is Aedes albopictus. You can call me Asian Tiger Mosquito. If you can't rembember that, you are welcome to call me Bug.
Bug. I wear the label proudly. Bugs are a nice family to be in. Some of us decorate the landscape with fancy colors. Many of us carry pollen back and forth to the plants so they can grow their flowers.
I'd rather not be called a pest though. I was born for a greater purpose. I’m here to feed the birds and herps. If you squash me, my life was in vain.
You can help me keep Ponte Vedra nature strong. Just scoot me out to where birds and herps can find me. It also helps if you report your sightings to iNaturalist with the Seek app. Don't worry. The iNaturalist community will help you pinpoint my true identity.
Do you have a story or a picture to share? Let me know so can add it to this page.
Fish
Hello. My name is Stellifer lanceolatus. You can call me American Stardrum. If you can't rembember that, you are welcome to call me a fish. I guess.
What is a fish anyway? Those of us with fins and tails swim around showing off our fishness. But why do those weirdo jellyfish try to claim they are fish? And shellfish? They literally walk around or don't go anywhere at all. Why do they call themselves fish?
Regardless, we fish feed the world. Like, everything that has breath, eats fish. We're the best protein there is and proud of it. You can help keep our food production strong by reporting your sightings to iNaturalist with the Seek app. Don't worry. The iNaturalist community will help you pinpoint my true identity.
You can also help by downloading the Fish Rules app and minding the limits. There are some brilliant minds working hard to make sure our fish communities are protected and nourished.
Do you have a story or a picture to share? Let Amy know so she can add it to this page.
Herps
Have you seen me? You can learn about me at iNaturalist.
You can help save my Ponte Vedra habitat by reporting your observations with the Seek app. Don't worry. The iNaturalist community will help you pinpoint my true identity.https://www.inaturalist.org/taxa/26159
Do you have a story or a picture to share? Let me know so can add it to this page.
While at work, I approached the Stewardship Coordinator for the Guana River Marsh Aquatic Preserves, Matt Bernanke. I asked if he knew of any fund that the public can donate to that is specifically earmarked for acquisition of Guana land. He looked into it and said no, but Scott Eastman might have some hints about it.
I approached Matt bernanke in his office at GTM while Susan was covering the front desk as a docent. I asked Matt if he knew of any fund that the public could donate to where the money was specifically earmarked to purchase property contiguous to Guana Reserve. Matt asked me if he knew Ellen if I knew Ellen, Leroy, Reed and I said I knew her briefly before she left. He said she was trying to work on that but Dale is looking in a different direction. I said I knew that. He said he would think about if he could think of any fund like that. Then he approached me a little while later and said he couldn't think of any at all.
Kayla, neighbor works for the North Florida Land trust. She was at GTM for turtle patrol on Saturday. Happened into the break room during my lunch break while Stephanie covered the front desk for me. I asked Caleb if she knew a way to get guana listed as a specific project people could donate for with their donations. Earmarked specifically for purchasing property contiguous to Guana Reserve as it becomes available and also to build a fund that would eventually be enough for her. Peyton to sell The Outpost property to the state. Kala said it was impossible to raise that kind of money but she eventually said she'd look into it. On the down low, she said her and Peyton is a horrible person and she was instructed to not have anything to do with him. But she would get in trouble for saying that.
A black girl attending the GTM TOTES training was wearing a pink tee shirt that said in large print, 'Preach like a girl'. I was intrigued. After the training, she came to the front desk to ask for a GTM sticker. I asked about her shirt. She explained that it came from a conference hosted by her church. I asked what church. She said "Church of God - Anderson". She said she loved it because it exposed her to an event called Christian Women's Connection. She encouraged me to check it out. I asked for her name and number so I might look into it later. She happily obliged.
Raja
904-763-9183
Tammy Lampe called GTM to purchase a parking pass ahead of time before she visited from Pennsylvania. She said her mother lived in The Fountains condos in Ponte Vedra. Her mother was very old and offering her condo to Tammy. Tammy said those condos were dilapidated junk and yet charged $735 per month HOA fees. She wanted nothing to do with it.
This date is an estimate.
Greg Paumen visited the GTM visitor center and we got to talking about local fish. He said he'd lived in St. Augustine Beach many years was now retired. He had a website where he provided data and pictures of boat launches for fisherman near and far. He was struggling with the tech but not in a hurry. He had a ton of great information, and I wanted to somehow include him on PPV. He wrote his contact information on a piece of paper for me to reach out later.
This date is an estimate.
Greg Paumen
Saltboater.com
Saltchef.com
203-470-3143
People started calling GTM to report a large, black dog roaming free along A1A in the GTM reserve. The rangers and other people tried to catch it but it always ran away. This went on for over a week.
On 8/2/2025, Jacqueline (Jackie) Pesola called to say she had already spoken with Zach about it and wanted to update him. She or someone she knew had set up a dog food station and trail cam near Mickler's beach. She said the dog showed up and ate the food at 1:00 am. She wanted Zach to know it was already passing the northern boundary of the reserve.
Jackie said it is her passion to recover lost dogs. She said she has an extra-large dog crate for the dog. She also knew someone who offered to pay a vet bill and adopt the dog if it got along with their existing dogs.
I took Jackie's number and texted the info to Zach.
Jackie Pesola
516-652-3227
Melissa (Booth) Baer came to the GTM front desk on a Saturday and asked about Booth Pond. She said her husband grew up hunting the WMA. He said there was a huge pine tree that took four grown men to wrap their arms around it. Those four men were Micklers. You could see the tree from the Intracoastal Waterway. It was in the news.
I told Melissa that another Booth descendant had asked me how to find Booth Pond about a year ago. I told her I wrote down his contact information in case anyone else came along. I told her I'd try to find it and get the two of them connected. She wrote her name and number for me on a scrap paper.
I can't tell is she is the Booth or her husband.
Tom George visited GTM and we got to talking about artifacts. He said he has a ton because he's been coming to Guana for a long time. He said he was there when they flooded the WMA. He had a wine bottle that oxidized after he exhumed it because it was leaded glass. He gave me his contact information to reach out later.
This date is an estimate.
Tom George
904-501-4181
What are emotions?
Josie asked me that during one of our conversations. We pondered the natural explanation and got nowhere. I decided to write a post about it someday.
This was in my assigned reading for UNIV 1001 Learning Guide Unit 4. It triggered me as vindication for the moment Stephanie turned on me. When I asked why we empty the blue bowls while counting money, her answer wasn't clear to me. The next time I reached that step, I forgot to empty them. She got upset at the result and said everything is all messed up now. I again asked for clarification, and she said, "Just never mind." She huffed and slammed her way through the rest of the task while I sat there confused not knowing what to do next. Blythe asked me, "Are you finished?" I said, "I don't know what's happening right now." Abby snorted and left the room. I followed up by email to Stephanie apologizing and seeking clarification. She pretty much said drop it. Then she wrote a procedure. I think she felt like I called her bluff or something, when I was genuinely just confused. This excerpt gave me great comfort. I want to post it on my desk.
"Intelligent people always question and evaluate. This doesn’t mean they don’t trust others; they just need verification of facts to understand a topic well. It doesn’t make sense to learn incomplete or incorrect information about a subject just because you didn’t take the time to evaluate all the sources at your disposal. When early explorers were afraid to sail the world for fear of falling off the edge, they weren’t stupid; they just didn’t have all the necessary data to evaluate the situation."
1. Baldwin, A., August, L., Bennett, J., Mathues, S., Monroe, S., O'Leary, MJ., Pearson, A., Troesh, J., & Watts, M. (2020). College success. OpenStax. Licensed under CC 4.0. https://openstax.org/details/books/college-success
My thermostat allows me to schedule a wake time and a sleep time in a way time in a home time. I have struggled to take advantage of that with temperatures that get cold for me to sleep and hot for me to wake up and snuggly for me to work at the house and save money to not run it while I'm gone. But I am forever adjusting it anyway and also forgetting what it's doing and finding it running when I didn't want it to.
Today, I really studied the thermostat and learned how to remove all that and just set the temperature for the same behavior permanently. No more multiple sessions throughout the day. Whatever I put it on, it's on.
A range from 70 to 78. If I'm cold I will dress warm. I sleep great when the temperature is cold at 70°. But I will be cold around the house during the day at that temperature. Nevertheless, I think this one straight temperature without my adjustments is going to save money.
I am recording this so that I can look back at electric bill and my Honeywell heating report and see if anything changes after this day.
I'm watching the crown on Netflix season 3 episode 4 titled bubbykins. Queen Elizabeth's daughter is chatting with her paternal grandmother who is Greek. She calls her Yaya. That's what I want for my grandmother name.
Listen to the recording. I believe he was mentioned as a major donor to WAC. Is the the same Goodwin that owned part of Guana Reserve at the Gate station?